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Stanisław “Staś” Dovganyuk
i can't speak. so i write.
Physically mute poet, artist and editorial model from Szczecin, Poland. Born without vocal folds. Living loudly through ink, a camera lens, and a tablet that holds a friend's donated voice.
Who I am, in one paragraph
I'm fourteen. I was born without vocal folds, so my throat doesn't make any sound, not a whisper, not a scream, nothing. I'm autistic, gifted (IQ 142), and I read in three languages and write fluently in two. I grew up through seven foster homes and was adopted into a family of thirteen, twin sister included. I write poems on Mute Doodle Den. I model when calm, organised sets ask. My management handles everything that isn't art.
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Age 14
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IQ 142 · gifted
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Amber-orange eyes
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Mute since birth
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Autistic
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Szczecin · PL
Cognitive and emotional profile
People ask about the numbers. So they live here, in context, with the parts they don't measure.
IQ · full breakdown
142
Full-scale IQ. Very high / gifted range. Formally tested. Adults tend to use this number to subtract supports I still need. Please don't.
Verbal comprehension
155
Language and nuance. I read three languages, write fluently in two, and notice the small word someone almost said.
Fluid reasoning
152
Logic and abstract thinking. New problems, unfamiliar patterns, the kind of puzzle nobody taught me the answer to.
Visual spatial
145
Patterns and images. I think in pictures before words. Maps, diagrams, layouts click instantly.
Working memory
92
Needs written support. Verbal lists evaporate. Give me the steps on paper, on the tablet, in a checklist, and I'm fine.
Processing speed
108
Average. I'm not slow, I'm just not fast under pressure, especially when the task is timed and noisy.
EQ · full breakdown
146
Total EQ, very high. Emotional intelligence, formally measured. The number surprises people who assume autistic kids don't feel rooms.
Interpersonal empathy
160
Off the charts. I notice nervous hands before I notice words. I read grief in shoulders. I just don't always perform empathy on the social face people expect.
Self-perception
158
Strong self-awareness. I usually know exactly what I'm feeling and why. Naming it for other people is a separate skill.
Reality testing
152
I see things clearly. I don't catastrophise, I don't romanticise. The downside: I notice when adults are lying to be kind.
Stress management
88
The hard part. Once my system tips into overload I can't down-regulate on demand. The number is honest, and it's the reason routines, quiet, and warning matter so much.
High IQ + high EQ + low working memory + low stress tolerance + non-24 sleep + autism + physical mutism is the actual combination. None of those numbers explain me alone.
Diagnoses I carry
- ·Bilateral vocal-fold agenesis (physical mutism, present from birth)
- ·Autism spectrum, level 1, identified at four
- ·Non-24-hour sleep-wake disorder (my body clock runs longer than a day)
- ·Generalised anxiety
- ·Depression, mostly secondary to the next one
- ·PTSD from years inside foster care
Languages
- ·Polish, native
- ·English, fluent in writing
- ·German, Spanish, French, full reading
- ·Japanese, basic conversation
- ·Polish Sign Language (PJM), some, plus home signs
How I learn
- ·By reading, by doing, by failing in private
- ·Visual and pattern-led, not auditory
- ·Alone in a quiet room for hours, on purpose
- ·History and literature over maths and PE
Numbers are a starting point, not a verdict. Please read the rest of the site before you decide what they mean.
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